I’m scared. Seriously. For the last few days, I’ve tried to write. But I haven’t been able to because of this fear. You see, I made a 2016 New Year’s Resolution to write a full manuscript by the end of the year and since then, I haven’t been able to write anything.
This may not be a big deal for some of you, but I’ve never finished writing a complete novel. (Unless you count my jumbled NaNoWriMo mess from a few years ago, which I don’t.) Writing an entire manuscript is a big deal for me.
You may wonder what I fear. Cliches. I’m so scared that my first book will be filled with cliches. In 2015, I overcame many personal obstacles to writing, but one of them remains strong: the idea that my story has to be “original.”
What does that even mean? Has anyone ever written something “original?” Both Harry Potter and The Hobbit were based on ideas from Norse mythology. Star Wars was influenced by Akira Kurosawa‘s 1958 film The Hidden Fortress. Hell, even Star Wars: The Force Awakens cannibalized itself and based the story on Star Wars: A New Hope. (They both had a Death Star, but they were different sizes!) So, if J.K. Rowling, J.R.R. Tolkien, and George Lucas can do it, then what’s MY problem?
A few things are helping me manage my fear. First, in my experience, to conquer a fear, a person should run TOWARDS it, instead of AWAY from it. Well, with the exception of fire. And cliffs. And rabid animals. Hmmm…. Maybe I should phrase this differently.
Let’s try again. Last year, I started to get over my fear of rejection by embracing it. Perhaps I should do the same thing with cliches? Just write a book of cliches. Maybe it should be called “Charlie Weaver and the Book of Cliches.”
Hey! Is it a sign that it sounds like “Harry Potter and the Sorcerer’s Stone?”
What’s that I hear? I think my wheels are turning again…… 😉