DAY #27: A Modified “NaNoWriMo” Challenge (Write 15 Minutes of Garbage Every Day)

It’s Day 27 of the 30-day challenge.  I still feel like writing something absurd.  More specifically, I feel like making fun of all of the young adult fantasy novels that I’ve read over the years.  The heroes are all so incredibly likable and competent (Think Harry Potter, Percy Jackson and Gregor the Overlander).  They all come from some sort of pathetic situation.  Why not write about a likably INCOMPETENT hero who just stumbles ass-backwards into good fortune?  So, here goes…..

Hi.  My name is Charlie Weaver.  I am a hero and this is my journey.

First, I was born, which goes without saying.  I have no memories of my parents, because what good hero does?  My Aunt Bertha told me that a stranger dropped me off on her doorstep when I was a baby.  I’m not sure if she’s telling me the truth.  It wouldn’t be the first time that she’s lied.  But I do know that I’ve been living with her for as long as I can remember.

My story begins on a typical Tuesday morning.  I woke up to the shrill voice of Aunt Bertha.

“Charlie Weaver, you better get your butt out of bed right now, or I’m gonna skin you alive!  Them cows ain’t gonna milk themselves!”

“Coming, Aunt Bertha,” I called out, as I scrambled to find my milking clothes in the toolbox that I used as a makeshift dresser.  I dressed quickly, pulling out the stray pieces of straw from my hair.  I raced down the loft ladder.

Aunt Bertha stood in the barn door, glaring at me.  She was carrying Baby Susie in her left arm, and had my little cousin Tobey by the scruff of his neck with her right hand.

“Boy, what are you thinking?  Sleepin’ in this late on a school day,” she grumbled, adjusting Cousin Susie’s position in her arms.  Susie emitted on ear-shattering shriek, before starting to wail.  “Now look what you done.”

Whap!  I felt the blow on the back of my head.  “You made the baby cry.  She’s hungry.  I coulda been feedin’ her right now, if I didn’t have to come out here and haul your lazy ass out of bed.  Now go get the pail and get the milk.”

“Yes, ma’am,” I said, as I followed her and the kids into into the kitchen.  I rubbed the back of my head, which still stung a little.

“Now, Martha, go easy on the boy,” Paw Paw Joe chided mildly from the breakfast table.  His spectacles slid down his nose as he flipped through the obituary section of the newspaper.

“You shut yer yap, old man,” Aunt Bertha snarled.  “I ain’t Martha.  I’m Bertha.  Martha’s been dead for a long time.”  She strapped the wailing Susie into the high chair at the table.  Tobey climbed up onto the chair next to Paw Paw and helped himself to a handful of Paw Paw’s crackers.  Aunt Bertha saw him and removed the bowl from the table.  Tobey responded by throwing himself onto the floor and howling.

“Aw, hell,” Aunt Bertha muttered, while she tried to pick Tobey up from the floor.

I quickly pocketed two biscuits while Aunt Bertha’s back was turned.  Paw Paw saw me, winked, and slipped me an apple.  I smiled gratefully and added it to my stash before reaching for the pail.  A glance inside made me groan inwardly.  There was a hole in the bucket.  My stomach tightened, as I braced myself for another smack upside the head.  “Um, Aunt Bertha, is there another bucket?”

She scowled at me, as Tobey continued to shriek.  “Do I look like I have money to buy another bucket?  Use that one.”

“But,” I began timidly.

“Boy, I thought you were supposed to be smart,” Aunt Bertha rolled her eyes at me.  “Use your thumb to cover the hole.”

Her sarcasm stung.  I didn’t want get hit again, so I just nodded and left.  School started in a few hours.  My history class was going on a field trip to the World History Museum.  I loved field trips.  This was the one day that I didn’t want to be late for school.

The walk to the pasture was at least one mile.  I kept staring at the hole in the bucket as I munched on the biscuits.  There was no way I could carry all of that milk without losing it to the hole.  Aunt Bertha would beat the living daylights out of me if I came back with less than a pail of milk.  But what could I use to patch up the bucket?

I was so worried about the hole that I didn’t notice that I was being watched.

DAY #26: A Modified “NaNoWriMo” Challenge (Write 15 Minutes of Garbage Every Day)

It’s Day 26 of this 30-day writing challenge, and I’m feeling more pumped up about writing today.  I feel like being completely absurd, so here goes…..

When I looked around the large table, I saw the stunned faces of the Elders Council.  They stared at each other as the news registered.  After a few moments, I broke the silence.  “Are you sure?”

“Yes, Charlie,” Professor Pedantic nodded.  His bushy white eyebrows knit together.  “My sources have confirmed that the dwarfs are en route to the castle.”

“En route?” Shivani Roy repeated.  Despite the gravity of the situation, I tried not to grin.  Conversations were always entertaining when Shivani was annoyed.

The school’s head mistress, Professor Serenity looked at Pedantic.  Her tone was mildly disapproving.  “Really, Robert? They aren’t dwarves. They are Small-Statured Bharatians.”

“I don’t care what they are,” Director Fussybottom replied grimly.  He stood up and began pacing.  Also grimly.  “If they’re trying to enter the castle without a permit, then it’s a problem.”

“They need a permit to enter the castle?” Shivani asked.  She looked at me.  “Why don’t I have a permit?”

Professor Pedantic shot a withering glance in Shivani’s direction, before turning his attention to the director.  His head bobbed up and down like a doll.  “I agree with you, Director,” he nodded.  “We need to think of the children.”

“Heavens!  You’re right, Peddy.  What about the children?” Mistress Prissy Pants clucked before waving her hands to fan herself.  “I’m feeling a little faint.”  She rifled around the large bag on her lap and pulled out her smelling salts.

“There, there, Prissy,” Director Fussybottom replied in a baritone voice that echoed through the room.  “We’ll take care of the situation.”

Professor Pedantic pushed his chair back from the table and slowly stretched out to his full height.  He waited for everyone’s eyes to fall on him.  “I propose that we form a committee.”

“A committee?,” Shivani sputtered, as she stomped back to the table.  Her golden eyes flashed, as she gestured towards the window.  “Yes, that makes perfect sense.  Let’s form a committee while the dwarves storm the castle.”  She threw up her hands in disgust.  “We need to do something about this, not just sit around talking.”

General Hawkthorn stared at Shivani in surprise.  He nodded slowly.  “I agree with the girl.  We need to dispose of dwarves immediately.”  He turned to a Warrior named Samuel.  “How quickly can you assemble your men?”

Shivani shook her head.  “No, that’s not what I meant.”

I glanced out of the window.  The dwarfs still had to cross the moat and scale the castle wall to get into the school.  Before Shivani called Professor Pedantic or General Hawkthorn a moron or some other Earth insult, I interjected.  “What type of committee?”

Shivani snapped her head at me and snarled.  “Charlie, are you freaking kidding me?”

I flushed, rattled by her tone.  I still didn’t understand all of her Earth words, but it was obvious that she didn’t agree with me.

“Now, Miss Roy,” Director Fussybottom chided her.  “Being under attack is no excuse for bypassing protocol.  If you have a proposal, you must submit it to the committee.”

Shivani rolled her eyes and threw up her hands in disgust.  “But there is no committee!”

“That’s why I proposed that we form one,” Professor Pedantic smirked at her and pointed to the stack of papers in front of him.  “It’s in the handout.  Would you like one?”

Shivani and I heard the shrieks at the same time.  Both of us rushed to the window.  There was a dwarf trying to swim across the moat.  “This is ridiculous,” Shivani muttered.  “The dwarfs will be here any minute.”

“That’s why I’ve been asking you to build a bigger wall,” Miss Prissy’s lower lip quivered.    “But none of you listened to me.  And now we’re going to be overrun with dwarves.”  Her large brown eyes welled with tears.

“All the more reason to form the committee as soon as possible,” Director Fussybottom said mildly, as he handed her a tissue.  “Please raise your hands if you support Pedantic’s proposal.  All those in favor?”

Everyone except for Shivani raised a hand and said, “I.”  I winced when she looked at my traitorous hand with disgust.

“Excellent,” Fussybottom said, bringing down his gavel with relish.  “And who should lead this committee?”

“Oh, my God,” Shivani said, clenching her hands into fists.  “What on Earth is the point of this committee?”

“This isn’t Earth, dear,” Professor Pedantic said gently.  “You’re in Bharat.  Poor thing.  Do you need Miss Prissy’s smelling salts?”

DAY #24: A Modified “NaNoWriMo” Challenge (Write 15 Minutes of Garbage Every Day)

So, it’s Day 24 of this 30-day writing challenge.  I am sitting here at my kitchen table writing before my family wakes up.  My mind is swirling from the events of yesterday and I’m brooding because I should be happy.  But I’m not.

For those of you who haven’t missed what is essentially a neon sign on the front page of this blog, my article was published on Scary Mommy yesterday morning.  You can check it out here, if you haven’t already read it:

http://www.scarymommy.com/i-am-the-daughter-of-foreigners/

It was the first time that I’ve had anything published on such a huge web site.  I mean, this parenting website has over 1.3 million followers.  So when my husband announced in the wee hours of the morning that my article was live, I FREAKED OUT.

OMG, OMG, OMG, OMG.  My stomach churned.  I felt like hurling, even though I hadn’t eaten anything.  You’d think that I would have been happy, and a part of me was, but the overwhelming emotion was Panic.  With a capital P.  Nothing but panic.

I raced downstairs to my laptop, flipped it open and stared at the screen.  OMG.  The title is wrong.  They have the wrong title.  It’s reading “Being The Daughter of Foreigners” instead of “I Am The Daughter of Foreigners.”  OH MY GOD, THE ARTICLE IS MESSED UP!!!!  IT’S A SIGN.  IT’S A VERY BAD SIGN THAT I SHOULDN’T HAVE DONE THIS.  THE UNIVERSE IS TELLING ME TO PUT THE KIBASH ON THIS RIGHT NOW.

As I frantically typed an e-mail to Scary Mommy to point out this disaster, I thought, I don’t want to do this anymore.  This is horrible.  Even though this has been my goal for the past year, I don’t want this anymore.  What if no one reads it?  What if I only get 20 views and they’re from my friends?  Or worse, what if people read it and they hate it?  What if I get 1,000 views and only 20 LIKES?  That’s WORSE.  MUCH, MUCH WORSE.

Oh, MY GOD.  Someone made a comment.  My first comment on my first published work.  AND IT’S NEGATIVE.  This person told me that I should have used the word “bigot” instead of the word “racist.”  I’m a writer.  I should have known that.  And it’s the first comment.  Now anyone who goes to post a comment will see that comment first.  It clearly points out my error.

I seriously just wanted to cry.  I don’t want to do this anymore.  It’s too hard.  I can’t deal with it anymore.  Let me go back to just writing for myself and to hell with putting anything I write out for people to view.  I’m done with this.  It hurts too much.

Fortunately, or maybe not so fortunately, a pesky little thing called parenting intervened.  I had to tear myself away from the train wreck that started in the comments section to get my kids ready before dropping off my son at school.  I was dying to look at my phone, but was forced to actually get things done the entire morning.

Hours later, when I returned to the computer, I was relieved to discover that there were more positive comments.  In fact, as I scrolled through the comments section, I would have to say that over 95% of the comments were positive.  By the end of the evening, I had received more than 1,100 “Likes” on FB.  Since I was hoping to get into the 100’s, I should have been happy about it.

But I wasn’t.  And I’m still not.  I’m consumed by a malaise that I’m struggling to understand.  There were 3-4 negative comments, two of which were ultimately deleted.  If I was still in school, I should still receive an “A” for this post.

So why are the handful of negative comments bothering me?  I fully expected that I would get verbally torpedoes.  This piece talks about immigrants, so OF COURSE, there will be negative comments.  I even planned my approach for dealing with trolls.

I think what got to me is the hatred that fairly oozed from one comment.  It just makes me sad that such ugliness exists in this world.  Especially when I have two small children.  I want them to have a beautiful life, and how can they when such people exist?

But I’m hoping that in this world, the compassionate people outnumber the cruel people.  Like on this article.  Over 1,100 Likes vs. 3-4 Mean Comments.  Kindness won in this chapter of my story.  Hopefully, over time, kindness will win in the world’s story.

DAY #22 : A Modified “NaNoWriMo” Challenge (Write 15 Minutes of Garbage Every Day)

Earlier today, I read a post on Ana Spoke’s blog called “The Best Way To Predict Your Future.”  It gave me chills, because although she doesn’t outright say it, Ana’s discussion alludes to a concept called “The Law Of Attraction.”

In plain terms, the law of attraction is simply “like attracts like.”  A person’s thoughts influences his or her reality.  If you have positive thoughts, you will attract positive experiences.  I first heard about this concept from a borrowed copy of “The Secret,” but the book was so hokey, that I couldn’t bring myself to actually spend money on it.  However, on some level, I agree with the premise.

Now, before you roll your eyes at me and call me a new age hippie (or worse), you should know that I’m a trained engineer.  I have a bachelor’s degree in chemical engineering and a master’s degree in mechanical engineering.  I worked in the automotive industry for over twelve years.  I love data and often clung to it like a lifeline.

But the universe is filled with mysteries.  Things exist that we can’t measure or explain yet.

The first law of thermodynamics is that energy can’t be created or destroyed, only transformed.  I grew up in a Hindu/Buddhist household.  My father taught me one fundamental thing:  thoughts are a form of energy.  So if energy can’t be created or destroyed, then where do our thoughts go once we have them?  Personally, I believe that they are transformed into our reality.

Now, I’m not claiming that I’m a genie who can just think, blink, and make things materialize out of thin air.  (But let me try….  I just won a million dollars.  Wait for it…. Wait for it….  Nothing.  Damn.)  But I do think that our thoughts influence what we experience in life.

Words are powerful.  When we write something down on paper (or computer screen), we are sending our thoughts and feelings out into the universe, which responds accordingly.  I’ve actually experienced this myself quite often during my career.  Just this past weekend, I changed my LinkedIn profile to say “Freelance Writer.”  Two days later, the e-mail from Scary Mommy arrived saying that they wanted to publish my essay.  Coincidence?  Maybe.  But what if it isn’t?

So, just for the hell of it, I’m going to write down my goals in bold writing.  I know these may seem lofty, but I’m of the mindset that if I’m going to do this, I should GO BIG OR GO HOME!!!!

• I will write an award-winning young adult fantasy series based on Indian mythology.  (Replace Percy Jackson and the Lightening Thief with Shivani Roy and the Demon King of Lanka)
• I will sell over 1 million copies of my books.
• I will generate enough income from writing alone to support my family and to start a foundation to help inner city kids get access to a good education.  
• I will be a New York Times best-selling author before the age of 50 years old.  (I’m 41 years old as I write this note.)  

Okay, Universe.  There’s my request.  I promise to work my ass off to achieve these goals and to have faith that everything I need will fall into place as I need it.

We shall see…..

The Demon and The Deva (Prologue)

Once upon a time, in a world very similar to our own, there was an ancient land called Bharat.  Within Bharat was a small kingdom called Videha.  This is where our story begins.

The ruler of Videha was King Janaka.  Under his long reign, Videha was prosperous.  The people were happy, and life was peaceful.  There was just one problem.  King Janaka was aging and he didn’t have an heir.  For many years, Janaka and his beautiful queen, Sunayana, prayed to the gods for a child.  But the gods remained silent.  No child was born.

One day, a senior advisor in Janaka’s court, named Vyasa, approached the king in the throne room.  “Sire,” Vyasa beseeched him.  “You have heard me talk of the Seers for years.  The time has finally come.  You need their help.”

Janaka’s brow furrowed.  Everyone in Bharat had heard of the Seers.  They were a group of golden-eyed mystics who lived in the kingdom of Mahishūru.  They followed the teachings of an Asura called Mahishasura.  “Demons,” Janaka sputtered at the thought of an Asura setting foot in his kingdom.  “You want me to ask those demon Asuras for help?”

“Janaka, I am your friend,” Vyasa looked him in the eye.  Few others would dare do the same thing.  “We have known each other since childhood.  I will not just sit beside you and feed you idle words in this time of need.”

“I still have time,” Janaka protested, flushing angrily.  He was older, but still one of the most powerful kings in Bharat.

Vyasa raised an eyebrow.  He was accustomed to Janaka’s ego, but the time for soothing injured pride had ended.  “Sire, please allow me to speak honestly,” When Janaka nodded, Vyasa continued.  “Your enemies are mobilizing against you.  They are waiting for the first sign of weakness to pounce on Videha.  You must have an heir and time to train him.  Without one, Videha is in danger.”

“But to ask an Asura for help is outrageous,” Janaka scowled.  His distaste for Asuras was deep-rooted.  Devas and Asuras had been fighting each other for centuries.  It was only in the last two decades that a tentative peace agreement had been forged between the two groups.  But the distrust still lingered.  “There must be another way.”

“My brother, there is no other way,” Vyasa said softly.  It pained him to admit it.  He didn’t want to approach the Asuras for help either.  “I’ve seen it.  This is the only path to an heir.”

“So, who do you propose we call?”  When Vyasa raised an eyebrow, Janaka shook his head.  “He won’t come,” Janaka crossed his arms.  “Even if I ask him to.  There is too much bad blood between our kingdoms.”

“Yes, he will.”  Vyasa smiled.  When his visions were clear, they were never wrong.  “Ask him and he will come.”

One week later, Vyasa’s statement was proven correct.  He rushed into the throne room and found King Janaka conducting his daily meeting with his ministers.  Conversation halted as Vyasa approached the king.

“Sire, he’s here,” Vyasa whispered into the Janaka’s ear.

The king waved his hands, dismissing the ministers.  Once they scurried out of the room, Janaka nodded to two of his guardsmen.

The heavy doors at the opposite end of the room swung open.  An Asura named Mahishasura entered.  He surveyed the room with one sweeping glance as he strode across the marble floor.  Despite his towering height, Mahishasura looked up at the throne from the bottom of the steps.  “Janaka.”

“So, we finally meet,” King Janaka nodded back, and remained seated.  He pointedly lowered his head to look down at the Asura.  It was customary for two royals of equal status to greet each other on level ground.  “I’m told that you are the legendary Mahishasura.”

Mahishasura’s golden eyes eyes narrowed.  He recognized the insult.  “I am.”

“You look more human than I expected,” Janaka remarked casually.  He scanned the Asura from head to toe.  “I’ve heard that you are part water buffalo.  If the stories are true, where are your horns?”

Mahishasura smiled, baring even white teeth.  “Stories don’t always contain truth.”

Vyasa fluttered around Janaka nervously.  He said softly, “Sire, I must remind you that we invited him here.  We need his help.”

“Yes, yes,” Janaka lifted one hand and waved Vyasa away.  The internal struggle was apparent on his face.  After a few moments of silence, he stood up and walked down the steps.  “My advisor has reminded me that you have done us a great favor by appearing in our court.”  He extended his hand.  “Please forgive me.  You have shown us a great honor with your visit.”

Mahishasura raised an eyebrow.  After pausing, he took Janaka’s hand and clasped it in greeting.  “You are forgiven.  Now, what is the purpose of my visit?”

“I have been told that your people have special,” Janaka hesitated.  He searched for the word.  “Abilities.”  When Mahishasura remained silent, Janaka continued.  “I have need of such abilities.”

“Is that so?”  The expression on Mahishasura’s face was mild interest.  “And why is that?”

Janaka grimaced, as if he spotted something distasteful.  He squared his shoulders.  “My advisors tell me that I will never have an heir without your help.”

“I see,” Mahishasura replied evenly.  He didn’t appear surprised by the revelation.  “And if this is true, why should I help you?”

The Asura was trying to bargain with him.  Well, this was something that Janaka could understand.  “What do you want from us in exchange for your help?”  He extended his hand to point out the splendors of the room.  “Gold?  Jewels?  I will pay your fee.”

Mahishasura snorted.  “I am the rightful King of Mahishuru.  It is one of the wealthiest kingdoms in Bharat.  Do you think I could be bought so easily?”

“But you’re not,” Vyasa interjected.  When Mahishasura turned his gaze to Vyasa, the old advisor stammered.  “Your Highness, I mean no disrespect.  But I have been told that you gave up your right to the throne to follow the teachings of the Seers.”

Mahishasura nodded.  “You speak the truth.  I am no longer the King of Mahishuru. But my people still follow my words as law.”

“Then why are you here?” King Janaka demanded.  He didn’t have time to banter with an Asura.  “If not for gold or wealth, why are you here?”

Mahishasura’s brow furrowed.  Why indeed?  “I will help you.  But for a price.”

King Janaka threw up his hands in exasperation.  “What price?  I just offered you all of the gold you could ever want.”

“My price isn’t wealth,” Mahishsura replied.  He glanced over his shoulder and nodded at someone waiting outside the throne room.  “I need your protection.  For him.”

A woman holding the hand of a boy walked up to the group.  The boy was young and handsome.  While the woman kept her eyes cast downward, the boy boldly met the penetrating gaze of Vyasa.  He grinned, showing a flash of even white teeth, before turning his golden eyes to King Janaka.

“Who is this child?”  King Janaka demanded.  There was something about the boy that made him uneasy.

Mahishasura smiled.  He rested his hand on the boy’s thick black hair.  “He is the younger son of the Sage Vishrava.  His name is Ravana.”

DAY #20: A Modified “NaNoWriMo” Challenge (Write 15 Minutes of Garbage Every Day)

Does anyone else have this problem?  Loss of momentum in the middle of writing a story?  It’s Day 20 of this challenge and I’m trying to pick up the story from where I left off yesterday.  I had tons of ideas for the direction I wanted to go when I stopped typing yesterday afternoon, but all of them flew out of my mind…..

Sigh.  Well, let me retype the last paragraph or two from yesterday, and see if I can generate some momentum again.  (NOTE:  I won’t include the retyped portion in my final word count.)

Shivani couldn’t admit defeat so easily.  She needed Patrick by her side for her first trip to Bharat.  “What difference does it make if they do discover you?  They can’t hurt you.”

“No, they can’t hurt me,” Patrick replied, and looked her straight in the eye.  It was time to tell her the truth.  “But they can hurt your parents.”

Shivani started at his words.  “My parents?” she repeated, frowning.  “What does this have to do with my parents?  They’re dead.”

Patrick studied the emotions that flitted across her face.  He had to tell her.  It was the only way she would be ready to face the situation in Bharat.  “What do you know about your parents?”

“Well,” Shivani hesitated.  “Not a lot.  I mean, the people at the agency told me that I was left at an orphanage in India when I was a baby.”

“And?” Patrick tilted his head.  He leaned against the desk and crossed his arms.  “What else did they tell you?”

As Patrick’s gaze narrowed, it occurred to Shivani that she had never questioned the story.  “Not much more than that,” Shivani shrugged.  “Just that an American couple adopted me and brought me to this country.  But they were killed in a car accident when I was little.  No one else wanted to adopt me.  So I went back into the foster care system.”  Shivani studied the floor.  It sounded so much more pathetic when she said it out loud.  She didn’t like that at all.  “I’ve been there ever since then.”

“So, no one knew who left you at the orphanage?” Patrick persisted.  He suspected what her answer would be, but wanted to make sure.

“No,” Shivani whispered.  Was it possible that her parents were still alive?  That they were the ones who left her at the orphanage?  Her heart started beating wildly.

Patrick knew what she was thinking.  He hated to crush her hopes, but she had to know.  “They weren’t the ones who dropped you off at the orphanage,” he said softly.  He winced when he saw the light go out of her eyes.

Shivani’s shoulders slumped.  He was probably right, but that small sliver of hope prompted her to question him.  “How do you know that?  Did you see it?”

Patrick hesitated.  It didn’t take his Seer’s abilities to see that Shivani wasn’t going to respond well to the truth.  What was the best way to approach this revelation?  “I guess you could say that.”

“Oh,” Shivani muttered, disappointed.  Patrick’s visions were always accurate.  “Did you see what happened in a vision?”

“No,” Patrick replied.  “It wasn’t a vision.”  When Shivani looked at him with confusion, he gave up his feeble attempts at tactful disclosure.  “It was me, Shivani,” he stood up and looked into the golden eyes that reminded him so much of someone else he had once loved.  “I’m the one who left you at the orphanage in India.”

DAY #19: A Modified “NaNoWriMo” Challenge (Write 15 Minutes of Garbage Every Day)

Well, it’s Day 19 in the 30-day challenge and I’ve completely run off track from a story perspective.  But the good news is that I’ve been writing for more than 15 minutes each day.

I want to try and get back into the story writing groove, so here goes:

Shivani stood in the empty hall, staring at Patrick.  His words were impossible.

“If you want to help them, then you have to choose,” Patrick said, as pulled out a key from his pocket.  Shivani heard the click and he unlocked the door.  He held it open for her once it swung open.  “And it has to be your choice alone.”

“But, I’m not ready,” Shivani protested.  It was too soon.  Her mind still whirled from his revelation.  She needed more time to prepare.  Her stomach tightened as she followed him into the large dark room.  It looked like a library, with its shelves that spanned the walls from the floor to the ceiling.  “I didn’t even finish the school year.”

“I know.  I wish that we had more time,” Patrick said, frowning at her.  He flicked on the light switch.  His concern was obvious, as he placed his hands on her shoulders.  “I wouldn’t normally ask you to choose yet, but we need your help.”  He dropped his hands from her shoulders and walked over to a panel on the wall behind the desk.  “And we need it now.”

“Why can’t you come with me?” Shivani pleaded.  There was no way she could do this by herself.

“I wish I could go with you,” Patrick said.  A part of him was tempted to accompany her.  “I really do.  But I can’t.”

“Why not?” she demanded.

Patrick sighed.  There were two reasons, but he would only tell her what she needed to know.  “They know me.  As soon as I enter that realm, the energy will shift.  They have Seers who will recognize the change the minute I arrive.  But you have a chance to get in there undetected.”

“But you can disguise yourself,” Shivani protested.  There was a sinking feeling in the pit of her stomach that she would lose this argument.  But she persisted.  “You can make them see what you want them to.”

“It’s not that simple,” Patrick replied, shaking his head.  “Humans in this realm are unaware.  It’s much easier for me to manipulate energy here.  But the Devas and Asuras aren’t so easily deceived.  It takes more energy to hide from them.”

Shivani couldn’t admit defeat so easily.  She needed Patrick by her side for her first trip to Bharat.  “What difference does it make if they do discover you?  They can’t hurt you.”

“No, they can’t hurt me,” Patrick replied, and looked her straight in the eye.  It was time to tell her the truth.  “But they can hurt your parents.”

DAY #18: A Modified “NaNoWriMo” Challenge (Write 15 Minutes of Garbage Every Day)

I had some good news today.  It turns out that one of my essays, “I Am The Daughter Of Foreigners,” is going to be published on a popular parenting website called Scary Mommy.  This website has over 1.3 million followers.

It’s still hard for me to believe.  This journey to get published on this site feels like an eternity.  In reality, it has only been six months.  I actually have an entire category on this blog devoted to my rejections from this site.  Why don’t we take a brief stroll through what I affectionately term my “Rejection Diaries?”

• To My Lost Litte One:  I’m So Sorry  [Rejection #1]
• Dear Perfect Parent [Rejection #2]
• A PSA About Karma [Rejection #3]
• Finding Coffee In Chaos [Rejection #4]
• Five Reasons I Love Starbucks [Rejection #5]
• To The Lady Who Left Her Son Alone In The Car [Rejection #6]

After that last rejection, I lost the motivation to submit anything anymore.  I tried to motivate myself with pep talks about famous authors who had been rejected multiple times before achieving success.  I told myself that rejections in my past have always led to better things.  But the truth is that rejection SUCKS.  It just does.  So I walked away from submitting articles and focused my attention on this blog.

I think it was inadvertently the best thing I could have done for myself.  When I stopped chasing publication, I started writing with joy.  The irony is that the piece that they accepted was something I wrote for myself.  I had no audience in mind when I wrote it.  Odd, isn’t it?

So, for all of you who are struggling with rejection and wondering when you’re ever going to get a break, please don’t lose heart.  Sometimes, it helps to walk away from your project.  Sometimes, things will come your way when you least expect it.  Just keep on writing and love what you do.

My essay, “I Am The Daughter of Foreigners” will be published on Scary Mommy on Monday, October 19th.  I am especially excited that this particular story will be shared with such a large viewing audience because it honors my parents and other immigrants who left their homelands to pursue better opportunities.  The thought of all of the sacrifices that my parents made to give my sister and me a better life is what drove my response to the racist couple that I encountered in this essay.

Please stop by and check it out.  All “Likes” are appreciated!  And again, please don’t let rejection cause you to lose heart.  Keep on writing.

DAY #17: A Modified “NaNoWriMo” Challenge (Write 15 Minutes of Garbage Every Day)

So, at the beginning of October, I started what I call my “true” author’s blog.  I had been toying with the idea for a while, but wasn’t sure if using a pen name or some other alias was better for me.  But then, I read another post on Kristen Lamb’s blog about the importance of using your real name as your author’s brand.  Hence, the “Taara Datta Donley” blog.

Starting a second blog is interesting.  I’m approaching it with so much more awareness of how things work this time around.  “A Writing Mama’s Journal” is my first attempt at a blog.  I was stumbling around in the dark, just trying to figure out how to approach content creation and getting views.  It wasn’t a very enjoyable experience.

My approach on this second blog is different.  I’ve stopped worrying about views, likes, etc.  I’m just putting up content as I feel like it.  And the most amazing thing has happened.

I’m starting to meet some really cool people online.  Not that I didn’t when I first started “A Writing Mama’s Journal,” but it just wasn’t my focus.  I regret not paying more attention.  I hope to rectify the situation.

So, I actually wanted to give a shout out to some fellow bloggers who have made writing an enjoyable experience for me over the past week:

Steph Mignon:  She’s a fellow stay at home mom who loves writing.  The two of us have enjoyed a good dialogue about the challenges of juggling parenting and writing.  I admire the truth and honesty with which she tells her story.  Her article, called “Weaning Woes” will appear on Scary Mommy on October 20, 2015.  Please stop by and check it out.

Damyanti Ghosh:  I haven’t actually had the pleasure of a conversation with this lady, but she has liked just about every one of my “NaNoWriMo” posts.  I was incredibly humbled when I discovered what an amazing writer she is!  Damyanti is an award-winning freelance writer whose work has been published by major firms in the U.S., India, Malaysia and Singapore.  Her website is filled with advice for aspiring writer and bloggers.  Please stop by Daily(w)rite and check it out!

Paul Davis:  This gentleman was the first person to comment on my new blog.  Once again, when I visited his site, I was incredibly humbled by his visit.  We share an interest in writing stories that are based on mythology, but I had no idea how amazing his work was until I visited his site, “Lands of Volden.”  His world-building is UNREAL.  It’s really worth your time to stop by and check out his work.

Nicole Mazavello:  This young lady stopped by and we’ve enjoyed a good dialogue about the upcoming NaNoWriMo challenge in November.  I’ve only had a few conversations with her, but her drive and determination hit me like a brick wall.  Nicole has signed up for the NaNoWriMo challenge AND she’s working on a book!  AT THE SAME TIME!!!!!  Unbelievable!  Please check out her work on her author’s site (Nicole Mazavello).

There are many other people that I could add to this list, and I think that is what I would like to start doing.  Thank you for all of your support and encouragement.  I’m looking forward to getting to know each of you.

DAY #16: A Modified “NaNoWriMo” Challenge (Write 15 Minutes of Garbage Every Day)

When I woke up this morning, the first thing I did was check my email.  This single action could be the focus of an entire blog post about screen time addicts, but I digress.  I checked my inbox and was surprised to discover a message from the website Nugget Tales.  It contained the following message:

[New post on Nugget Tales] Shivani Roy and The Demon King of Lanka

Another piece here from a brand new writer, this is an excerpt from a novel they are working on and they would really appreciate some feedback from our readers. We hope you enjoy it!

YOU CAN CHECK OUT THE STORY HERE:  http://nuggettales.com/2015/10/10/shivani-roy-and-the-demon-king-of-lanka/

I stared at the screen in shock.  OH MY GOD!  THAT’S MY STORY!!!!  I knew that it was supposed to appear sometime in October, but I still wasn’t prepared for the surprise.  I would have shrieked, if not for the fact that the house was quiet.

I clicked the link to Nugget Tales and to my incredible delight, saw my story PUBLISHED LIVE ON THEIR SITE.  For a few moments, I just sat in the dark, basking in the glow of that incredible screen image.  Someone actually thought enough of my story to post it on their site.  Unreal.

After a few minutes, my husband walked into the room to inform me that the kids were up and saw me just sitting on the bed and staring.  He beamed when I told him the news, hugged me and said, “Congratulations!  I’m so proud of you!  You’re a published author now.”

I pushed him back and automatically replied, “No, I’m not.”

He looked at me strangely and tilted his head towards the screen.  “Isn’t that your story?”

“Yes,” I replied.

“Isn’t it posted on that website?”

“Yes,” I said hesitantly.

He shrugged.  “Then you’re a published author to me.”

I didn’t argue with him, but had trouble accepting his words as truth.  Which is why I’m writing this post.  I have it in my head that to be considered a “published author,” I must have a published book or be a regular writing contributor to a large website.

So, is this my own personal issue?  Or do other people share my views?  What does a writer have to do to be considered a “Published Author?”

I recently read an article on Kristen Lamb’s blog about women not “owning” their achievements.  Men own their achievements, while women minimize them.  Is this my problem?  Is it because I’m female that I feel so insecure about owning this title?

After struggling with this internal debate all afternoon, I finally updated my LinkedIn profile with the following title:  “Published Author.”  I still feel guilty about putting it up there.  I have this image in my head that people will see it, roll their eyes and snicker about it.  But I’m going to try and own it.  We shall see.